Good fcking chairs.

Can we talk about back pain?

 

I am 27 years old, and I want to talk about back pain. This makes me mad.

 

While I live in a city in Germany, so I don’t drive… and part of my job is to go teach at different businesses, meaning I stand up for at least 2 hours a day…

 

why the EFF does my back hurt?!

 

Well, it doesn’t help that I have had skoliosis since I was 10. But let me tell you- it isn’t that severe to be causing this pain. Am I alone here??

 

No.

 

After spending plenty of time on Twitch, trying to navigate this rabbit hole I accidentally plunged down last year around this time, I have noticed that one of the biggest things everyone is hawking is their DAMN CHAIR.

 

Gamers of course are going to be the first to notice this problem. Most video games are performed sitting down.

 

Well, I sit on a recycled office chair 3 days out of the week, and I sleep on an old mattress I bought from the former tenant for 40 bucks. (its soft. And clearly it is making me soft as well.).

 

I need help.

 

I need a good. fucking. chair.

 

 

 

 

aaaaand scene.

Links I’m loving right now

The internet is a massive black hole, and half the time I’m on it I feel like I’m wasting my time to find something that is actually worth my time. Some things have really quenched this thirst lately so I wanted to post here to either a) share this with you guys, and/or b) publish it so I can find it later. Because really this blog is kind of contributing to the black hole I mentioned previously.

1.

Porn Hub’s 2018 Year in Review: I recently had this sent to me, by none other than my boyfriend, and I have got to say it is one of the most interesting thing I have read on the internet. Yes, I know it is March 2019 and I am super late to the party. The piece really goes hard on the stats and provides a peak into the world’s changing sexual interests. This article was on my mind so much it actually came up as a topic while live streaming on Twitch just the other night. Have to say it has been one of my favorite live stream discussions to date.

Speaking of porn…

2.

Via the rabbit hole that is YouTube, I landed on some TedTalks and followed it to the founder of a website called Make Love Not Porn. The focus is really more about love making (clearly) and real life couples and partners sharing their intimate lives and kinks. The viewing system is much different than PornHub and is worth a look. They provide previews, but one has to work off of a subscription model or I believe a pay per view. Some of the previews are good enough! I will say that their website needs a major revamp though. It’s almost hard to navigate, and is not user-friendly yet. However the idea of this movement is deserving in itself.

Something now a little less sexy…

3.

Fresh Air has been a staple in my life since freshman year in college. Radio had always been really big in my family, and I realised just how much I missed NPR once I had moved out. There is honestly something so great about Terry Gross; probably many somethings actually. The show sources incredible subjects and she asks questions that get to the meat of the matter. A few weeks ago, this one came out about the cost of going to the ER in America. This was particularly poignant as my father was just there last week. Thank goodness he came out alright, just a hiccup in his health. Living and working in Germany, I am thankful everyday for this healthcare system, and that I never have to worry about my health vs my bank account. I just have to worry about the bank account after booking too many adventures in South Africa.

What’s draining the wallet and the bottle…

4.

As early as next week I will be taking my first trip to South Africa! I cannot believe it. I didn’t even think I would get to go to Africa in my life, especially not in my 20’s. Life has a funny way of surprising you like that. I have been dating a wonderful South African since last summer. He does live there, so we have a LDR. However, he goes to incredible lengths for us to see each other. This is the longest we have been apart since we have been together and its just been a month. He is always flying in, and he came to Dallas with me for the weddings last fall in Dallas! (Which reminds me. I have got to tell you the story of how that happened.!)  Our first destination will be Cape Town, and there we will be going on a wine tour of the vineyards at Franschhoek. BUT LISTEN! We are going on a wine tasting tour via a tram!  I have no idea what to expect, I have nothing to expect at all for this trip, but I am SO GAME for the idea of it. The idea of it is getting me through my work day.

To be completely honest, I didn’t pay for the wine tram.. but I’m positive the wine will be affecting my purchases once I’m on it. Please pray that I don’t order a $100 wine.

 

What’s filling up my brain…

5.

You may more may not know that I am not a gamer. However! There is this daily brain excercise app called Peak Brain Training. It gives me 4 short games every day (because I have the free version) that are supposed to be measuring and excersising different areas of the brain, like memory, focus, emotion, language processing, etc. Do I know if that is working? No. But I definitely find myself opening it every day to play these four randomised games, which they select for you based on your development (I think). What I do know is that I like it, and a feel like I am doing something good for myself. Even if it is a game.

So I have started a Twitch channel

Hey there… long time, no see.

 

My bad. I want to be able to say that I have been trying, and trying, and trying to post. But to be honest, I forgot about you. So many things have happened since I last posted. Like..

  • Got a full-time job in the office at an English training agency
  • Broke up with my then boyfriend, D
  • Lived with said ex for 6 months as exes
  • Moved in to an apartment below my client’s mansion while I looked for an apartment
  • Sorta kinda moved in with my rebound for a month
  • Found an apartment in the center of the city
  • Built a kitchen
  • Went on too many vacations
  • Got in debt
  • Got out of debt
  • Was a bridesmaid in two weddings
  • Found the love of my life
  • Started a Twitch channel

 

So I started a the channel about half a year ago because I was lonely in my new apartment. I needed someone to talk to, and I had never cooked really before. So what did I think to do? Go live-stream learning how to cook.

I have learned so much, about myself, about cooking, about technology in general. Honestly, people on the internet can be SO nice. So kind. To someone they have never really met.

Unfortunately, like you sweet, sweet blog, I stopped streaming about two months ago because life got really busy. Now I just have that anxiety of showing up again. Like “Hey guys! I am back, sorry we didn’t speak in forever!” That is nerve racking. But to be honest- I should stop being so vain and just do what I want to do. I want to live stream. I like to live stream. So get over it.

 

Any way. This has been an inner monologue gone public. Thank you very much for being a big blank white space for putting words on.